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Hello Friends.

For as long as I can remember I have dreamed about being thin.  Life would be better, I would be prettier, people would like me more...if I was thin.

Recently, I came across a picture of me that was taken 15 years ago...I was not thin...in fact the person staring back at me was 30 pounds heavier and almost unrecognizable.  It made me cry...not just tears, but sobs.  How could anyone have liked me...let alone love me?  Once I re-gained control of myself, I felt depressed, sad for the girl in that picture...but as I flipped through all of the photos (a trip to NYC with Curtis before we were engaged) I started remembering the places we'd visited, the laughs we'd shared and the memories made.  Wait, life WAS good then...I was just too obsessed with my weight to notice.

Fast forward to the present and I now realize how much time I wasted 'vying' to be thin.  How much of our lives drift by while we're trying to be something else?  Now I am thin and I can report that life is just as good, people are just as nice and Curtis still thinks I'm pretty.  The big difference is that I feel better about myself.  Not just because I lost those extra pounds, but because I set out on a path of health and self improvement...and I am finding success.
So what's my point in all this?  Life has this fantastic way of handing you lessons when you're not looking.  I spent years shedding weight thinking that once it was gone I would have it all.  What I learned was that 'it all' comes from within. It's not about what size you are...it's really about how much love you have for yourself.  Somewhere along the way I found out who I was.  I honor all of those insecurities I held on to for all those years because they shaped me into who I am now and what I believe about life.  There is no destination...only the journey.

I can look at that 15 year old picture and know it's not the extra weight that made that girl unfamiliar to me...it's simply that I just don't know her anymore.

What are you obsessing over that's keeping you from living life to the fullest?  Spend some time thinking about it...and then let it go!!!  YOU are worth it!

Toby

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  1. SusieMay 22, 2012 at 2:27 PM

    Im so glad i stumbled upon your blog. its like you are reading my mind in this post. I look forward to reading more from you.

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